Where are you God? I find myself asking Him that in times of difficulties. Our family has been going through a rough patch since June. It’s crazy how one day can impact your world so immensely.
So again, I ask where are you God? He answers me in subtle ways. In the small breezes I feel when I’m outside talking to Him. In the hugs my babies give me on my rough days. In the random joyous moments I’ll experience out of nowhere and the love and devotion from my husband. I hear Him calling me to come back to prayer. Come back to Him.
I have been lost without my God. You can go to church and be in the presence of His holiness but if you are not there consciously, then are you truly there? Prayer to me is the lifeline to God. Yet when life happens, and things are either going amazingly well in life or you’re in the depths of depression you seem to lose yourself or your faith. Seemingly that’s the one thing God asks us to have. Faith.
I don’t know you guys; it seems that I have lost myself in life lately. Treading slowly back to Him. I know He is there waiting. I just need to grab ahold of the line and hold on for dear life, because if not I’m afraid I will lose myself even more.
Christ with me,
Christ before me,
Christ behind me,
Christ in me,
Christ beneath me,
Christ above me,
Christ on my right,
Christ on my left,
Christ when I lie down,
Christ when I sit down,
Christ when I arise,
Christ in the heart of every man who thinks of me,
Been a while since I’ve written, and I do have to say that it’s honestly a form of therapy for me. Life is happening, good and bad. I find we are in a tough situation financially and health wise lately. Nothing so serious as some may battle so I definitely try not to complain as much.
It’s hard watching your children be sick. I think we’ve been battling a stomach bug more this year than ever before. So Pedialyte, Pedialyte popsicles, water, crackers, baked potatoes, caldos (Mexican soup), and manzanilla (chamomile) teas are life for us at the moment. So, if you’re reading this please send up a prayer of healing for our family.
We all go through struggles in life and it always seems hard to stay steadfast in our faith. It may even be harder when you’re feeling attacked through all aspects of your life such as; financials, health, love, family, anything really. You can try and try so hard to dig yourself up out of the sand but it just keeps piling back on. Don’t stop though. Keep going. So cliché right?
Do it anyhow. I have been getting down lately because it just seems never ending that something is always happening. My husband lost his job, we ran out of our savings, but we have 2 months of not having to worry about rent at the moment. Always and upside, right? So, I want to try something my sister sent me earlier this year. May God bless her always.
I’m going to be praying for the intercession of Our Lady of Perpetual Help, to bring our problems to Jesus so that He may grant us the grace to continue on. There are many miracles associated with praying for help to God and praying for the intercession through the blessed Mother Mary and the saints.
So continue on. Fight the battle everyday and try not to dwell too much on the negatives that are going on. The devil loves when your attention is on him and not on God. Focus on Him so that the grace of God may be upon you.